When you want something REALLY bad.

This is what I'm talking about right here...

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about love, not in general though. I'm talking about love as in the love of my life. I don't  even know where to begin with... maybe I just need to write about it to feel less anxious... or something like that. 

Somehow (and for some reason), my previous relationships have failed for different motives. Either was their fault or mine or neither, but it just didn't seem to work. I've had my heart broken and I've broken some myself. Not that that makes me proud or anything, is just MY reality.  BUT, however, God has healed my heart many many times and he's been with me in good times and bad. He was the one that made me stand up and learn from my mistakes, but never judge me. I owe him everything. 

I've been thinking a lot about what I WANT in a man, what I REALLY want in the man I'm gonna marry with. But, In this post, I'm not gonna tell you about what I want in him, I'm gonna tell you about what I think I should do to get the right man with me and by my side. So here's a little list.

1. Be a woman of PRAYER. 
2. Have an awesome relationship with the Lord (and this is just not for him, I would still do this if it wasn't for a man, don't get me wrong)
3. Be a strong independent woman but also a fragile vase like the scriptures say. Let him take the leadership in the relationship. Let him be the head.
4. Pray for him.
5. Pray with him.
6. Be a household woman that can support a home by her own. 
7. Prepare as much as I can to be an excellent mom. A respectful mom. Thank God I have 2 nephews, 1 niece and 2 cousins. All under 9.
8. Work in the ministry. Prepare to be the one that works right next to him, be the one that supports him no matter what.
9. LISTEN to every advice people that I love give me. Either if it comes from his family or mine or basically anyone. 
10. Love his family and try to have a good relationship with them.
11. Respect his opinion and look up to him.
12. Learn from women I admire. 
13. Take notes of what men DO and DON'T need in their lives and try to understand every stage we're at. 
14. Don't be arrogant.
15. Don't be selfish.
16. Try to not make it hard for him to understand me (I'm a woman, only by that is hard to try to understand me) 
17. BE THE BEST I CAN BE. 

My grandpa always use to tell me that when you go fishing, depends on what you want to catch, you have to put the right kind of worm. If you want a BIG beautiful fish, you have to put a BIG beautiful worm. 

If you want to catch a GREAT man, you have to be a GREAT woman. That's just how it is. You can't expect much if you're not doing much. You can't expect to have a man of prayer and after God's own heart if you're not a woman of prayer yourself that makes GOD the first in her life. 

What are you doing while you wait for that man (or woman) that God has for you?

All my love, 

                      Jen