10 times blessed.

All my life, when I was in school, I was top of the class. I remember being the class president every year and getting achievements and recognitions from my school. Always 1st place by the end of the year. Always the top student of the class. I got use to that... too much I would say. 


My first year in University was the toughest year I've had in my entire life. I remember being really stressed all the time, crying over not sleeping at all for all the work that I had to do. NOT being the top of my class, always having someone who was "better" than me, a better designer, a much responsible and organized person than me, etc. etc. I was drowning. I remember the feeling as if it was yesterday, I remember how I use to complain about everything, not understanding how I couldn't be "the best" this time, was I not ready for University?, was graphic design not for me?.


And then, something happened, God spoke. Loud and Clear. I've said this before but I'll say it again. Through his words in the scriptures, he said to me: 

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7

I will always remember that, I constantly repeat that verse to myself whenever I fell overwhelmed or stressed. I finally understood that all of THIS wasn't about me being the best or being on top of everyone all the time. This was about me being challenged for the first time in my life, God was trying to teach me a lesson. A lesson that  I could finally understand. Then I started practicing this: 

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,  since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Col. 3:23-24

 In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Prov. 3:6

Once I finally started practicing all this, my life in school got easier (is not easy yet, but is easier than it use to be), but this wasn't all, I knew I had to see something better in my work. It took a long time but finally, I can say that God has shown his grace and wisdom upon me. I started praying to be like Daniel and his friends, (...And in every matter of wisdom and understanding about which the king inquired of them, he found them ten times better than all the magicians and enchanters that were in all his kingdom. Daniel 1:20).


On Wednesday, I had my regular class of the hardest one we have, is SO HARD to pass it. Having a 7 on a scale on 1 to 10 is a bit HIT. My teacher told us she had our period averages for her class, we were SO nervous, it had been a tough period for all of us. And so she started saying names... (with a 5, you don't pass)
...5.5
5.1
6.6
6.4
5.1
......
7.5 
Jennifer Moys: 8.2! (best average in all groups, congratulations!) 


I WAS S-H-O-C-K-E-D. I couldn't believe it... then I knew what is like being like Daniel and his friends. I knew what is like when your prayers are answered. That's all I could think of in that moment. I thank the Lord and dedicated my achievements to him, I did it for him in the first place :) He has also taught me how to be humble and feel good about my classmates when their projects are better than mine, I don't feel envy or anger about that, I feel so proud and happy for all of them! And I know for sure that I wont be the best of my class all the time. As long as I put God first in everything, I really don't mind. 


Now, I'm responsible with all my projects, my classmates enjoy working with me, I get to feel it and it's great!. All for his glory!  


AMEN!

All my love, 
                   Jen

The man of my life.

Today I'm gonna blog about the true LOVE OF MY LIFE. The man of my life, the one that I've been in love with all the years I've been alive. The one that has never failed me, never cheated on me, never let me down :)... MY DAD!


Daddy, this is dedicated to you with much love!

How amazingly cute is this?

When I was little, as every girl in this world, I use to say that I was gonna marry my dad. Everytime someone would ask me: who are you gonna marry when you get older honey?, I would ALWAYS say: I'm gonna marry daddy. Right daddy? and he would laugh and kiss me. Though I have to accept that I use to have a huge crush on one of my uncles, so I betrayed him for a couple of years haha. 


Ever since I got old enough to understand things of my own, I can tell you that My Dad has ALWAYS been there for me, he's been there to see me MESS up, take my own decisions, fall down and get back on my feet again. And many times, he was the one who lifted me right back up. I owe him so much. 

I love you Daddy!

He's seen me fall in love, he's seen me cry over a broken heart. He's seen me cry on the floor in my room with my hear broken in a thousand pieces, and he has been the one who just sat there with me, say nothing and just be there, right next to me, he's cry with me, I cried on his shoulder and  He was the one who comfort me when I couldn't even breathe over pain I was going through. 


He was the one who understood what I was going through, and though sometimes I have to say that  (to not say all the time), he's warned me over somethings that he sees coming, and I have NOT listened to him, and then I got in trouble, and then I got my heart broken, but even then, he has NEVER said: I told you so. Like EVER. And I'm SO grateful for that!. 


When I felt overwhelmed with school, when I just couldn't take it anymore and I broke apart, he was the one who took out his Bible and read some beautiful verses to me and then I would be calm again. He was the one who came into my room when I finally fell asleep and he would cover me with my blankets and then he would put his hands on me and just pray quietly to not wake me up thinking I was asleep. I wasn't dad. Your prayers always worked.


He was the one that was there to celebrate all my achievements, give me a hug and say: "I'm proud of you, princess". He was the one that gave me my first Bible, my favorite one, and he was the one who wrote that amazing and beautiful dedication on it, and that's the one I still use. 


He was the one that tried to convince me to play with barbies and I never said yes, always preferred soldiers. Sorry Dad.


He was the one that always stood up in front of me and defended me from my mom and brothers.


He was the one that has never ever had the wrong impression of me, even though he's heard gossip about things I supposedly did. He always asked me first and I would always tell him the truth 'cause he's the only one I can't lie to. I don't dare.


He was the one who still loved me in spite of my flaws and imperfections, he was always there for me no matter what.


He was the one who never felt ashamed of calling me his daughter, he was the one who called me "HIS DAUGHTER" with all pride and love.


He was the one who always believed my word and trusted me. He was the one who I could always count with. 


He was the one who has called me his princess and doesn't depend on how I respond to his love. He's loved me unselfishly and never expected anything in return.


He was the one who taught me how to believe in God. He taught me how to pray, He taught me how to read my bible, He taught me how to be a real Christian. 


He was the one who taught me how to really FORGIVE. (Britt, when you read this, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about)


He was the one who taught me how to be humble and gentle by heart, just like Jesus, and he's taught me that just by watching him doing it. That's a reality in his life. 


He is the perfect example of a man after God's own heart, he's the kind of person I want to be when I grow up. He's wise, he LOVES the Lord and he's the best dad on earth. 




I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH DADDY! <3 you have no idea how proud I am to have a dad like you!.

The million Dollar smile :)

Your princess always and forever,
                                                  Jen

When you want something REALLY bad.

This is what I'm talking about right here...

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about love, not in general though. I'm talking about love as in the love of my life. I don't  even know where to begin with... maybe I just need to write about it to feel less anxious... or something like that. 

Somehow (and for some reason), my previous relationships have failed for different motives. Either was their fault or mine or neither, but it just didn't seem to work. I've had my heart broken and I've broken some myself. Not that that makes me proud or anything, is just MY reality.  BUT, however, God has healed my heart many many times and he's been with me in good times and bad. He was the one that made me stand up and learn from my mistakes, but never judge me. I owe him everything. 

I've been thinking a lot about what I WANT in a man, what I REALLY want in the man I'm gonna marry with. But, In this post, I'm not gonna tell you about what I want in him, I'm gonna tell you about what I think I should do to get the right man with me and by my side. So here's a little list.

1. Be a woman of PRAYER. 
2. Have an awesome relationship with the Lord (and this is just not for him, I would still do this if it wasn't for a man, don't get me wrong)
3. Be a strong independent woman but also a fragile vase like the scriptures say. Let him take the leadership in the relationship. Let him be the head.
4. Pray for him.
5. Pray with him.
6. Be a household woman that can support a home by her own. 
7. Prepare as much as I can to be an excellent mom. A respectful mom. Thank God I have 2 nephews, 1 niece and 2 cousins. All under 9.
8. Work in the ministry. Prepare to be the one that works right next to him, be the one that supports him no matter what.
9. LISTEN to every advice people that I love give me. Either if it comes from his family or mine or basically anyone. 
10. Love his family and try to have a good relationship with them.
11. Respect his opinion and look up to him.
12. Learn from women I admire. 
13. Take notes of what men DO and DON'T need in their lives and try to understand every stage we're at. 
14. Don't be arrogant.
15. Don't be selfish.
16. Try to not make it hard for him to understand me (I'm a woman, only by that is hard to try to understand me) 
17. BE THE BEST I CAN BE. 

My grandpa always use to tell me that when you go fishing, depends on what you want to catch, you have to put the right kind of worm. If you want a BIG beautiful fish, you have to put a BIG beautiful worm. 

If you want to catch a GREAT man, you have to be a GREAT woman. That's just how it is. You can't expect much if you're not doing much. You can't expect to have a man of prayer and after God's own heart if you're not a woman of prayer yourself that makes GOD the first in her life. 

What are you doing while you wait for that man (or woman) that God has for you?

All my love, 

                      Jen

Random?

I have absolutely NO IDEA what to write about, too many things in my head I guess, so I'm just gonna post about what's on my mind very randomly. Enjoy :)

• My nephew as been with me since last Sunday (we're on holidays here), and he's had a blast with me! and I think I'm more in love with him than ever. I guess I got to see a glimpse of what being a mom really is like. And you know what? I love it. And also, I don't know what it "feels like" to be a mom, but, if you can love someone more than I love him, then I have no idea what love is. 
• I'm listening to Audrey Assad's album "The House you're building" and guess what? I L-O-V-E  I-T. I think is one of the best albums I've heard in a long long time. 
• I've made new friends these past few days and I think they're going somewhere good :) Thank you Lord for new friendships!.
• I bought some amazing dresses! yup.
• Lord's supper at church was great! I started off a new year and I'm loving it.
• I've got the chance to rest (really rest) these past few days, and I feel so relaxed and peaceful. 
• I found new artists and I'm SO excited listening to their albums.
• I started a new group on facebook just for women from my church and I think is going somewhere interesting and nice. I'm excited for the things we're gonna get to talk there :)
• I've been thinking a lot about the one I love but don't know yet. I wonder where he is, what he's doing, if he's thinking of me, if he's praying for me, if he's in this country, if he loves me in advanced as I love him already. I miss him so much even though I don't know him. 
• I've been having cravings of a very good kiss. And I've had time to create this millions of fantasies in my head about what I want with the love of my life. Really, I can't wait to finally meet him and start our journey together.
• I have  a secret blog and I'm NOT telling you :P
• I'm in love with this song (Ought to be- Audrey Assad), and I'm dedicating this to my boo.

• I think that someone I know is in love with someone I know and I don't know what to think about that.
• I miss giving warm hugs :( 
• I went to meet my friend's baby the other day and he's adorableeeee, I feel in love with babies again.
• I don't wanna go back to school :( enjoying my vacations way too much.
• I went to the movies yesterday to see RIO and I lovedddd it. I went today again to see HOP and I didn't like it, like at all. yucs.
• I want a white chocolate bar :( 
• For some reason, I want to cry right now :( I don't know if I want to cry over sadness, happiness, desperation or who knows. 
• I'm gonna be honest here, by saying that I'M NOT ready to fall in love again, I know, is kinda contradicting from what I've been saying, but the Lord is just telling me to wait. REALLY wait.
• I know now about the importance to be ME in any circumstance I'm in. If someone's gonna love me, it's gonna be for ME, not for something I am when I'm with them.
• I'm reading Redeeming Love again, and I just... I don't know, I love it, period. 
• I have a friend that talks to his 'brain' while he's talking to me and I think is hilarious. 
• God is teaching me so much in small things. Small details, small moments, but I'm learning SO MUCH, one of those things is PATIENCE! I'm finally learning about it. 
• I've been extra sensitive lately, I don't know what it is, but I'm ok with it.
• I'm learning so much from THIS song in particular:  Such powerful lyrics, and they mean so much to me RIGHT now in this moment of my life. Please listen to the lyrics. "....I'm letting it go..."

And that's it folks :) So many things on my mind still, but that's it for today :) Blessings.

...........Update N- 1

Where to start? So much to tell!


My last post was from Friday Night, when I usually prepare my children's class for Saturday. Somehow, I couldn't think of anything normal, I couldn't prepare my "usual" class.  Oh well, I decided to make this "contest" for the afternoon service with the kids. So in the morning, we had a great class, we had over 30 kids in the same room trying to pay attention in class (to me, actually), I have to say that  I was starting to get really tired after the first 20 minutes. But they learned so much.  So, it was more than worth it.


After I finished with my class, I had to practice with them the songs we're singing for  Lord's supper next Sunday (SO FREAKING EXCITED FOR THAT BTW), and we sang those songs like a million times, I'm rehearsing them... so, my voice was so tired. After rehearsal, we had lunch up in the crater with my mom and my nephews & niece. We were literally having chicken soup like 100 steps from the crater (full view), weather was nice and I love that place so much. 


What I really want to blog about was the MESS of that contest I decided to make. Actually, I had NO IDEA that that was gonna go so far from my hands and that they would have been SO competitive between each other. There were 2 groups, the "Green Group" and the "Blue Group". Each group had a leader and they were suppose to do all kinds of "tests" throughout the day. Like, make a logo, wear something of their own color, collect things (to make a babel tower afterwards, that was the point of the class), and they had to STUDY Genesis Chapter 11 (Babel Tower Chapter), and learn it because we were gonna have a contest of Questions and Answers to win points. 


It all looked so pretty and fun. BUT, in the middle of the afternoon, right before our class began, they had this HUGE fight between each group and one group ended up destroying all the things that the other group had done in all day. They said bad things to each other, fighting and hurting themselves with words :( :(, it was so sad to see, specially when I came into the room to ask what had happened. I was in SHOCK when I saw them YELLING at me as if I was their sister or something. One of them was soooo angry, that he ended up having a fit and destroyed his own work. He left church and went back to his home and the rest of his group were fighting and arguing with everyone. IT WAS A M-E-S-S-. I didn't know what to say or do, I was so angry-frustrated-sad-disappointed at all of them.

This was kind of their faces.

I truly didn't know what to do, I was at loss.  Then the class had to start, I spoke with confidence (and I admitt it, very angry at them), and I told them how disappointed I was of them, how bad I felt and how shocking it was for me to see all that I saw, their attitude, their actions and even the way things changed from being a "fun activity" to a disastrous afternoon. I punished them, told the little ones to go out to their class and I stayed with the big ones (the messy ones). I told them that I was gonna cancel every activity for the day. 


Ok, I still don't know if I did right by doing this, but I have to admit that I just didn't want to be there, listen to them or even worse, give them a class. I was SO MAD. And so, I made them copy two full pages of that chapter, they spent like 45 writing it. I didn't let any one say a word all afternoon. And after they finished, I took all the sheets and asked them if they had a hard time writing all of it. They said yes (they still have a hard time writing too much, they're not that big), and so I took all of the sheets and I CUT them... all of them, right in front of their eyes. They were SHOCKED. 


I said: you know, I love the Lord, I love working for him, and I do all things for him, I go to bed really late on Fridays to prepare your class, I do my best effort to make a great class for you guys, I study, I think, I write, I do things that are not that easy and on top of that, I have a million other things to do, but I still do it because of the love I have for God's work, but I ALSO do it for you!, I do it so you can learn something while you are still kids, I do it so you can look back when you are grown ups and say "I learned so much in children's class", I'm preparing you to be the next generation of Church's youth. I do it because I love you. And just like you felt bad by seeing me thorn your papers, that's how I FELT when I saw all that you did today, how you take the work  I do and put it in the trash because you just don't care about the consequences of what you do with your actions. I'm very sad, and this is just so discouraging for me to see. 


A kid stood up, came up to me, gave me a hug and said: I'm sorry, could you forgive me, please?


Another kid stood up and gave me another hug. One by one, they came to me and hugged me and said they were sorry. Tears were running down from my cheeks. It was a big moment for me. 


And then, you know what happened? They gave each other hugs and all of them reconciled, said they were sorry and they all cried!. Oh what a moment. I will always cherish it. It was quite a lesson for all of us.


And so, for next Saturday, I will do my best to prepare their class, I will take my best effort so they can learn and fall in love with the Lord everyday of their lives.

Sunday :)


Completely different scene. Granny's 72th Birthday!! 


Ok, one thing first: 

When my family says "Birthday Lunch", is actually a synonymous of "Don't eat for 24 hours before lunch to have room for ALL that food".

We had Beef, Burgers, Chicken, Chorizos, Potatoes, Chives, Rice, Chimol, avocado, Chessee, Tortillas, this special gelato ice cream cake made by my uncle. Coffee, sodas, water, and more food. Yep, that's what we eat when we get together, healthy? DON'T THINK SO.


We had SO much fun!, we had Piñatas, Mariachis, good conversations, great pics, great company and of course, great family quality time. So, to not bore you, here are some pics :)

Granny Crying of excitement! she's so cute

Now you see where I got my big smile?

My auntie :)

My uncle singing with the mariachis, it was hilarious

Her grandchildren :) 

I love her SO MUCH. love this picture

Surprise, surprise!

another part of her grandchildren and nephews.

Granny with Gelato Cake.

YUMMM!

This picture is indescribably funny for me. For many reasons.

Me and my cousin! :) I love her.

With love, 
                     Jen

............Perfect Silence.

It's been quite long since I've been wanting to shut down my Facebook and Twitter account for a while to dedicate the time I use to dedicate to those 2 things, to God. 


I'm not gonna lie, it's been way too long since I've had QUALITY time with him (meaning deep surfing in his word, meditate, REALLY pray and sing to him), it's been too long... too long, I need it. And I know he wants it. So, I'm not gonna say no this time, I already closed my fb ant tw account. I'm off there, and you know what?... It feels good! not that there's something bad about this 2 things, they're good ways to communicate with everyone you know, but it can be pretty addictive (you are always pending on who posted what, what she/he said about something, what did someone commented on your pictures, status, etc etc.) well, that sounded pretty freaky, is not like THAT. But it's the truth.


Latest technology can be good, very good, but it can also be very very bad, and it can take your time and just put it on a running float of water, it goes SO FAST, that next time you know, it's time for bed and you're "tired" to talk to God and have a good time with him. I know it, happens to me everyday, and I'm not proud of that :(... But!!!... I have the chance to redeem myself and go back to my intimacy with him. I'm so excited for what he's gonna teach me this week! SOOOOO EXCITED! :) :) :) :)


For now, I'm just gonna praise him with singing and next of, the floor is craving to feel my knees :) It's been a while friend!, and then... time in his word! aaahhh, what an indescribable feeling it is when he talks directly to us through his word! 


I'll be posting here some of my thoughts and what he teaches me :)


Have a blessed week.

I don't think I was praying here, but at least I had my veil on hahah.

Oh I remember this day! :) we had a sweet time with God by the lake with my friends!

I long to see my princess like this in a future :) 

The one of my dreams (and prayers)

You know, just like any other girl out there in the world, I have a "Dream Man", the one I would like to spend the rest of my life with. And Oh boy, I have quite a list. Some are really... funny and not realistic maybe, but aahh what you gonna do with a girl's mind? Let me be. I want to dream for today :)

So here are 50 things I would love in a man:

1. A man after God's own heart (most important characteristic I think)

2. Someone I can be ME al the time, not pretending to be pretty and perfect all the time.

3. Someone who laughs at my jokes.

4. Someone who lets me be silly sometimes and doesn't think I'm being childish.

5. Someone who has a GREAT taste in music. And please, please, please, that he doesn't like regueton, bachata or any other of that crap like Justin Beiber, or juvenile music. Geez.

6. Someone who can dress well.

7. Someone who smells nice (a nice perfume, nice shampoo and nice body lotion *if he uses one*)

8. Someone who would let me hold him as long as I want, wherever I want.

9. Someone who lets me touch his hair :) even if he has hair product.

10. Someone who would challenge me to be a better me in every situation.

11. Someone who would let me know in what areas I'm failing, but it's important that he does it gently and with kind, respectful words.

12. Someone who has a great personality. The kind my family would love.

13. Someone who is not JEALOUS. PLEASEEE 

14. Someone who is a man of his words. Never cancel a date (unless it's an emergency), but it's important that he cancels days or lots of hours earlier, trust me, I've had experiences where he cancels like 1 hour before *when I'm ready*, because of his mom. Ahhhg.

15. Someone that has a good relationship with his family :)

16. Someone who likes to read interesting books and doesn't like vampire novels. Or any other series of novels, unless it's interesting.

17. Someone who knows about movies, and not commercial ones, I mean the kind I like -weird, interesting ones-

18. Someone who would make me laugh 'till I almost pee my pants hehe

19. Someone who his eyes light up whenever he hears my name.

20. Someone that calls me funny nicknames. Original ones!

21. Someone who has a good skill, like musician, artist or designer :D or something like that. 

22. Someone who makes a change in his world.

23. Someone who cares about the world ecologically speaking. 

24. Someone who LOVES coffee! YES.

25. Someone who would take breakfast to bed to me :) and spoil me any other day with cute things, like notes, roses (not a big fan of roses though), or sweet details. 

26. Someone creative and unique :)

27. Someone who can be a GREAT dad.

28. Someone who would ask me to pray with and for him. 

29. Someone who would encourage me to have sweet quiet times with the Lord. (alone and together)

30. Someone I can be quiet sometimes with, where  I don't need to say a word and just lets me be beside him.

31. Someone who would eat cereal with me for dinner (sometimes, I'm an eggs & beans fan)

32. Someone I can be in bed all day for our lazy sundays :), reading, watching movies and sleeping.

33. Someone I can go anywhere and he would fit perfectly in the enviroment. :)

34. Someone who would let me say " I love you " as much as I want. 

35. Someone who would know the OBVIOUS difference between Helvetica and Comic Sans.

36. Someone who likes photography!

37. Someone who enjoys art. 

38. Someone who respects my opinion.

39. Someone that looks up to me as his wife <3

40. Someone who would enjoy my pregnancy stage :D And make everything easier for me. And mostly, understand what I'm going through, be patient and love me anyways.

41. Someone who would take care of me when I get sick. 

42. Someone who loves my family.

43. Someone who is hard worker and always want to go for more in life. 

44. Someone who would let me cry in his shoulder when I'm feeling down.

45. Someone who would keep me warm at night.

46. Someone I can cuddle up with when it's cold.

47. Someone who's not that tall, 'cause I'm pretty short haha.

48. Someone who is there for me NO MATTER WHAT.

49. Someone who would put me down from the clouds when I dream too high. Someone who would keep my feet down to the ground.

50. SOMEONE I CAN FALL INLOVE WITH EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE!

Jen

...........Sunday at the Beach :)

My mom goes every single Sunday to the beach to help around in one of our shops. Her help is quite needed 'cause as you can imagine, I live in El Salvador, which is extra hot ALL THE TIME, now imagine that plus 10  at the beach! aaahgg is so frikin hot, I can't stand it, and that's why I don't go much. I literally HATE being hot, sticky and sweaty... not for me. 


This Sunday I decided to go with mom and granny, I wanted to scape my "homework reality" for a while and wanted to chill. And so we took off... and let me tell you something: IT WAS HOTTER THAN I THOUGHT. Oh my gosh... we were probably at 40' C... UNBELIEVABLE.  But the beach looked so pretty and I had a good time. 


Itinerary for the day: 


1- EATTTTT... 

I had this Ceviche Peruano (fish cooked with lemon, onions, olive oil and spices) it was soo good! and I had a Watermelon frozen, it was also good :)

My ceviche peruano :) yumm

Granny had this "Mar y Tierra" combination of french fries, roast beef and shrimps with this special sauce. I didn't try it 'cause I don't eat shrimp but she said it was good

Granny's plate!

Mom had a special something made straight from the Chef (it's her friend), and it was a very healthy plate :) I liked it.

You can barely see the fish, but it was there, and it was GOOD

2- WORK!

The employee we have at that shop is pregnant, and she wasn't feeling so good. Her tummy is HUGEEE and she's just expecting the baby to come out any time soon, so we let her go home and so my mom and I had to work instead. It was even hotter inside the shop, but we had time for pictures hehe.

My mom :) see where I got my big smile? haha

The view I get right outside the shop.

To the other side :) 

:) isn't pretty?

3- Dinner with family :)

After we finished our labor (hehe), we went to my granny's house 'cause my uncle was making food for everyone, and let me tell you something... those "dinners" with my family can be the funniest thing ever. We don't stop laughing. I love them so so much! 

And so my day ended pretty well with a cold cold shower, washed my hair and slept like a baby! :)

Here's the song I'm listening to right now. Pretty much my mood right now! :)

She's great!

Good night world! 

Jen