...............When you wonder WHY?

Maddie <3

Yesterday night, I couldn't fall asleep, I did everything I could possibly do, but I couldn't, so I wandered through the list of blogs I often read, and tried to look for some new ones I could find interesting, and I came across this blog, and before I give you the link to it, just let me tell you that... It's been days, weeks and maybe even months since I cried the way I cried reading this blog. My heart broke for this couple and I just couldn't understand WHY would God allow this things to happen. 


Turns out that, this beautiful couple, got engaged, got married and tried to have children for a long time, when she finally got pregnant, they thanked God, she had a wonderful pregnancy, waiting for their baby to come out in the right time, took pictures of the entire 9 months and enjoyed being pregnant. 


Madisson was born like a perfect little healthy princess, she was beautiful in every single way. PERFECTLY healthy and they just couldn't be happier. They loved her with all their heart. Until the unexpected happened:


One day, her husband called her at her work, and his voice sounded broken. He told her that Maddie had stopped breathing (while she was at the babysitters), and all that, just like that, she just stopped breathing, she lost her life, she passed away. JUST-LIKE-THAT-


I was SHOCKED, I felt confused just by reading it, you know? I've lost many many people, I've been through painful situations-such as going to my best friend's funeral- but I just simply cannot imagine the pain they most have felt and what they've been through since then, it's been over a month since they lost their child, and I can't express how encouraged I am by them to have such strength is this moments. Blogging makes her feel less depressed and sad because of all the positive feedback she's had from people she doesn't even know. Though they don't understand WHY she died, and probably never will, they know that people have been touched by their lost, and has created conscience in areas that maybe people take for granted. Such as SIDS, which is the actual cause Maddie passed away, to read more about it, go HERE. And to read her blog go HERE. I hope you will be as touched as I was. This just lefts me thinking that the prayer I make for my children (in the future), will be heard by God, and also makes me want to believe that I'll be a good mom, just by researching subjects like this and worrying about the health and protection of my kids. And though I know that they will NOT be mine (because they are God's), I will be here to guide them in their lives as they walk step by step holding God's hand. 


God please give comfort to families that have lost their children, and give them courage to keep on going.