..........Let the children come to me...

I've seen her before, I've listened to her before, wearing an office baggy suit, tired eyes,  Is it a lie?, Is it true?...

Those were a couple of things I thought when I was in the bus this afternoon, I was standing way in the back of the bus, all seats taken, and then a lady started talking in front of everyone, asking for money for her sick child. Usually, I would think that is not true what they say 'cause most of the time is not, they just make things up to get money from all the people that are riding the bus. Some extralimit themselves by taking their sick children with them everwhere so the people can piddy them. I'm totally against all that for several reasons, but I'm not gonna talk about it now. The point is that for some reason, I believed that lady, all the time, everytime she stands there in front of everyone to talk about her sick child, I believe her.

This time was different, I hesitated about her words (same as usual), I questioned myself by thinking if what she was saying was true or a lie. After she finished talking about her sick child -Renal Insufficiency- she asked for money, lots of people gave her. Not me, not this time.

The seat that was right by me was emptied in a second, I Could finally seat, and for my surprise, she sat right next to me and started a conversation...At first I was like hostile and to be honest, all I wanted to do is question her about her child, wether was a truth or a lie...I wanted to take every question out of myself and see if she was a fraud. But her words kindly softened my heart. She told me the story about her other 2 sons, how she wanted to stop right there and have no more children but her now ex husband wanted to have a girl. She couldn't refuse and got pregnant. Her long time boyfriend, the father of their 2 kids, the one she was married for a long time and was with her since highschool, cheated on her with her best friend, and found out that her friend's kids were also her husbands kids. She was 8 month pregnant with his child (to find out that he was also a boy, not a girl like he wanted), she was SO mad at her husband and her best friend, that she lost all stirrups and had an awful figt with him. Next time she remembers after that fight, was waking up in the ICU, all beat up, with a sick child in her belly struggling to survive. That beating caused the Renal Insufficiency on her child, that's why he's now in the ICU fighting against death at only 6 years old. As she was telling me all this, her eyes were literally closing, her shift at work yesterday began at 8 p.m. and ended at 2 p.m. today, to start riding every bus she could and ask for money for her child and then go visiti him at 5:30 p.m. at the hospital. She was tired, she was so tired of life itself and all the things that she's been through. But she had this unexplainable peace in her face, the kind of peace that surpasses all understanding, the peace of the Lord. She is a woman that believes in the Lord and it was SO obvious in her. She shared how she managed between her tiredness and her willing to fight for her  child and how he was her reason to be alive. I admired her in that moment. I admire her now. I believe her story, and my heart breaks for her.

All of this, reminds me of one of my long time life dreams....that's having kids of my own. I pray that the Lord would keep them safe during pregnancy, when they are born I want them to be perfectly healthy and safe in my arms, I want to give them all the comfort and all the love in the world as possible. I want them to grow up knowing the Lord and making him the Lord of their lives. I want them to make him shine through their lives and in their friend's lives. I want them to be women and men after God's own heart. I want them to love him with all their hearts. I PRAY for that. I long for that...

This was a good lesson for me, I think it was no coincidence for me to seat right next to her. I think God sent her right in my way to change a peace of my heart, or at least remind me that he shines and that I not only live for myself, I live to serve others and pray for them, I live to make him known and to shine his love. This was a beautiful lesson. I pray for her and her child, hopefully things will get better in the future so he can dedicate his entire life to God, and I ask you to pray for her and to pray for your own life and future children. Already in advanced...

“Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Don’t be afraid or discouraged by the size of the task, for the LORD God, my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you.” 1 Chronicles 28:20

For now, I'm going to pick my nephews and niece to their house to have a beautiful sabbath together as a family, work at church tomorrow for God's precious children and make the best work I can.

Hope you have a wonderful Sabbath.